I have had an eye opening experience this past weekend as it has been building up the past couple of weeks. Slowly God was telling me to come back to him. Yes I have been a christian for years but for the past couple of years I have sketchy with my faith. My career, marriage, school and myself have taken direct hits because of this. This morning at church the pastor talked about waking up every morning and arming yourself for the day. I have never thought of it that way before but we live in a worldly world and if we do not pray for that armour it is easy to get "attacked" in areas of your life. Without realizing it I was going back down hill and not putting on my armour. I was doing things that I would never do normally because I had talked myself into thinking they were ok. I will start praying every morning for my armour and to win against Satan in these areas of my life. Galatians 5 is the chapter that the pastor went over.
I have been blessed in my life and I have been unable to see that until recently. Some of my students come to school and do not want to go home. School and being there with me is their safe haven. I will start praying for wisdom on how I can help these children for the small amount of time I am in their life. God is good and is faithful and is here for His children. We live in a worldly world and are human and will make mistakes but armouring yourself everyday will give you the extra courage to tackle these everyday "attacks."
Sunday, April 25, 2010
Monday, April 19, 2010
When Does the Wanting to Help Fade Away???
I have recently taken a closer look at my students and how they interact with one another. I love teaching the younger age because they haven't been jaded yet when it comes to helping. Whenever I drop something or another child spills something they run to help clean it up. Before now I would get all anal and tell them to go back to what they are doing. I am very controlling and set on everything going in order. Today I stopped and saw the beauty of it: they run to help without any encouragement on their own. I need to learn that interruptions in a day's schedule can be ok. From now on if a teacher drops something in the hallway and my student's get out of line to go help I am not going to instruct them to stay in line and keep going because we are on a time schedule. Sometimes its the little moments that can become the best lessons. I have to stop being impatient and let life happen.
I never want to be responsible for dampening the willingness to help others in my students. When I look at the older grades in my school I see how different they are and it breaks my heart because I worry that my "babies" will one day act the same. At what age does it all change?
I never want to be responsible for dampening the willingness to help others in my students. When I look at the older grades in my school I see how different they are and it breaks my heart because I worry that my "babies" will one day act the same. At what age does it all change?
Thursday, April 15, 2010
First Post
Aaauuuggghh....I am new to this blogging stuff but my life's recent encounters have opened new doors. I am trying to find myself again when I have been not myself for a very long time. I am an elementary teacher but I will NOT concentrate on my spelling or punctuation while blogging...lol.
I lately have found a new love for my job which is so crazy to me. I used to hate going to work and wanted to find any outing that I could from teaching. These past two years have been my worst but I have a new found joy that in those two years I have become a stronger teacher. I can honestly say that I love all my students. I love the ones that are always on task, I love the ones that need a hug first thing in the morning, I love the ones that I struggle with because with those I grow and I challenge myself. I become a better teacher and in that a better person. I never wanted to be a teacher it was a mistake actually that I became one and it is something I would have never seen myself doing. I get stressed out and I make no money but who says wealth is money???? I get hugged a thousand times a day. I get told I love you and I say it several times a day. I deal with snotty faces and kids eating glue but somehow it is worth it. I hope I always remember to hug back.
I hope I never take them for granted and I am wondering what my next couple of years hold. I am hoping for a new experience within teaching and a change up of help. I guess I will have to depend on God for what He thinks is best.
I lately have found a new love for my job which is so crazy to me. I used to hate going to work and wanted to find any outing that I could from teaching. These past two years have been my worst but I have a new found joy that in those two years I have become a stronger teacher. I can honestly say that I love all my students. I love the ones that are always on task, I love the ones that need a hug first thing in the morning, I love the ones that I struggle with because with those I grow and I challenge myself. I become a better teacher and in that a better person. I never wanted to be a teacher it was a mistake actually that I became one and it is something I would have never seen myself doing. I get stressed out and I make no money but who says wealth is money???? I get hugged a thousand times a day. I get told I love you and I say it several times a day. I deal with snotty faces and kids eating glue but somehow it is worth it. I hope I always remember to hug back.
I hope I never take them for granted and I am wondering what my next couple of years hold. I am hoping for a new experience within teaching and a change up of help. I guess I will have to depend on God for what He thinks is best.
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